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My cyst journey is just about over, there shouldn't be any direct posts about my cyst.  I went to the doctor today and had my staples removed! Yah!! Every exciting.  It didn't hurt as much I thought it would.  The pulling of the staples and the itching is over too!!  So I'm well on my way of being myself.  The doctor said that I'm healing fast, so I just have to keep doing what I'm doing... as being careful and increasing activity as I feel comfortable.  I will still be off of work for 4 weeks.   I know I should enjoy it because it has been 14 year since I have been off for this length.  However I can't help but feel guilty so enjoying it is tough.  Plus I'm not feeling the greatest yet.  All the biopsy's were back and everything is clear no cancer.  So lets all move on to funner things!!

Tomorrow my mom will be taking me shopping, to help with lifting, opening doors and pushing the cart.  I'm hoping I will have some deals to report.  But no worries, I will be back driving next week and I'm hoping not only will I have shopping deals to report, but I will also have rummage sale deals too!!  The 1st of May is the first community rummage sale of the season.  I so want to go.  So I have to work at being good and strong enough to enjoy the day.  Last year it was rained out.  Well I should say the sales went on, but the shoppers were the craziest people I have ever seen.  I'm shocked no one was run over, the drivers drove like crazy people...  fighting for parking places and every one was in a hurry to get to the next sale.  No one walked because it was raining.  My daughter and I gave up early, we were fearful because the drivers were not using their heads.  Hoping for better weather this year and hoping I will feel good enough to really enjoy the rummaging!!!

I'm looking forward to Lost tonight.  As much as I used to love the show, it really lost something this season.  So the count down is differently on for the final show.  I will be happy not to be tied to that show.  Everyone says to me, why are you still watching if you don't care, well.....  I have 6 years invested in that show, plus I have to know what the ending is.  But I'm certain that it's not going to be total jaw dropper as the first and second seasons were that got me so hooked.  That is the kind of ending I'm looking for..  the shocked, oh my god feeling.  I don't want to wonder or have questions when it ends.  If there is a little bit of thinking at the end thats ok.  But I don't want more questions.  I want the 6 years of questions, answered.  Yes anyone that has been following that show will say there is no way that all the questions will be answered...  I know, but I want what I want!!

Well I'm hoping that my blogging will get back to normal now... 

Cyst

I'm feeling a little bit better every day.  I know I will feel better once the staples are removed.  They come out on Tuesday, then count down is on. 

Before my surgery I was a pack a day smoker.  Because of the surgery I couldn't smoke and I haven't.  It has been 9 days.  I'm doing ok with the withdrawals.  When I get stressed and need the comfort of smoking is the hardest part.  And of course there is the habit part which is also difficult.  When we built the house 17 years we came up with a rule that there would be no smoking in the house.  So every time I wanted a smoke I would go outside or in the garage.  So the complete mindless act of lighting up isn't there.  But the pull to go out to the garage to have a smoke is hard.  Stressful times I want to smoke really bad...  but I haven't.  I was really surprised everyone said that I would smell the old stale smoke on my clothes, jacket and vehicle, but I don't.  Is it too soon??  I haven't tasted the difference in food either, everyone said that food will taste better... it hasn't.   I wanted to quit, first the attitude of people when you light up was getting harder and harder to deal with.  Plus come July the state of Wisconsin will be smoke free in all public buildings.  I wanted to be smoke free myself by then.  It's looking I will be!!   It's exciting and to keep the excitement alive I have decided to buy something I wouldn't normally get myself.  I will be saving a lot of money by not smoking and I feel I deserve something.  So what??  I was thinking about a smart phone so I could get data/internet service while I'm at rummage sales.  I really don't know much about them.  Will I be able to find prices from ebay via the smartphone???  Does this work well??  I also want to keep lists and organize using this phone.  Will a Blackberry work for what I want to use it for???  My contract with Verizon is up in August, however I will be switching cellphone companies at that time.  I think I will be going with US Cellular.  First they have the best prices on cellphone serve in the area and second so many people I know are moving from Verizon to US Cellular.  I still thinking about what would be best..  if you have any input let me know.   More posts will be coming this week....

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Surgery went fine on Friday.  I was released Sunday before noon.  I'm very sore, but doing well.  I can have the staples removed on the 20th. The doctor removed both ovaries, uterus and cyst.  The doctor said I had endometriosis on both of my ovaries.  I had mood swings on Saturday they upped my hormone patch and I feel lots better.  So we'll see what other menopause symptoms come my way.

Time to relax!!!  Henry is loving all the time together!!!

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It was a long day at the doctors office.  This new doctor seems really nice.  I will be having surgery on Monday.  They will be taking the cyst and that ovary, plus the uterus.  He will be looking at the other ovary to see what condition it is in.  It is looks healthy he won't take it.  However he will take it if it looks like it will cause me trouble in the future.  So hopefully I will still have a ovary after the surgery so I don't have to take replacement hormones.

The doctor is 99% certain that it is not cancer.  But he won't know for sure until he's in there and they test the cyst and ovary.  I feel better about the whole situation.  And I knew there would be surgery and I wanted it soon.  Well now that I have a date and I'm scared about the surgery.  I'm sure everything will be fine.  I will be in the hospital for 2 to 4 days.  I will be off from work for 6 weeks.  This comes at a very bad time at work.  We are short of help.  One of our waitresses quit and we were hoping that we wouldn't have to hire someone new until fall when the college kids start school.  But with me being off we will have to hire someone right now.  I'm sad that I have put them on the spot and I was scheduled a lot of hours in April.  The others will have to cover my hours which means they will have to work just about everyday.  I will owe them big time.  Last year and the year before when my father was ill, I had to take off a lot and they covered my hours without complaint.  Now again they have to cover me again...  man I feel terrible about that.  3 years in a row!!  But at least I will be back on my feet by June.

I will post as much as I can before Monday, then the next week I won't probably be away from the computer.  Then after that, when I'm recovering....  watch out I will be probably driving every crazy with posts!!  Lucky you!!!!

Cyst

I haven't been posting often on this blog because last week I found a cyst, well I didn't fine it my doctor did.  If you don't need to read about the journey of this cyst I will be putting a header Cyst, so you can skip it.  But this is going to be distracting me from all the things that I love to do... rummage sale, shop, garden and doing things around the house.  Luckily this is happening before the carshow season!!

Last week I was having my "monthly visitor", which is normally very predictable and never a problem.  Well I had a problem.  It was heavy and I had very large clots.  It scared me.  My husband took me to the ER.  They did some tests and said go home, call your OBGYN.  They couldn't or wouldn't tell me if going home was dangerous.  I was upset because the situation was very unusual for me and seemed dangerous.  I had no pain so they said nothing we can do... see your OBGYN.  So I called got an appointment for the same day.  They did an ultrasound and a biopsy of my uterus.  This is what they found a large 10cm cyst on my right ovary.  The biopsy and blood tests came back negative or normal.  However the ultrasound shows that there are dark areas on the cyst.  So my OBGYN said she didn't think it was cancer (enzyme test came back negative) but she didn't like the way it looks with the dark areas.  So I have an appointment with a GYNO Oncologist on Thursday.  She felt positive that this is going to lead to surgery.  Well talk about a way to bum me out.  I love Spring, it is my favorite season and it seems like this year we are going to have an early Spring.  This is the first early Spring in 10 years for this area.   It's very exciting, the thought of gardening early and take the convertible out soon makes my heart beat fast.  Well now this, but it needs to be done.  I just don't see this cyst going away on it's own.  I know sometimes they try to shrink it, however this thing can twist and rupture.  The Dr. said that I shouldn't do anything type of exercising.  Well I'm a waitress, there is a lot of movement with what I do.  Our work kitchen is extremely small so I run the risk of running into other workers.  Lots of stop starting and twisting to avoid other people in the kitchen.  I'm lifting heavy trays up to my shoulders or higher.  So while waiting for the appointment to find out what's happening I'm trying to be careful at work.  This makes for a stressful situation..  always thinking am I doing something that can cause it to rupture.  So the thought of trying to shrink this thing and the time that might take bothers me.  However do I want surgery... NO.  I will know more...  hopefully on Thursday.  Until then I'm trying to be careful, but not think about it all the time.  The funny thing is, I have no pain.  None.  The doctors were surprised that I have no cramping or pain.  Plus I had 2 exams and no one can feel this cyst.  I had one of those exams after they knew it was there and still they can't seem to feel it.  It didn't hurt nor could I feel it during the exam.  This cyst is a sneaky thing!!!

Your probably wondering why I'm posting this.  This is away to vent for me.  Plus the wait to find out anything is lengthy.  It's been a week today since finding out.  I still have 2 days to wait for my appointment.  I have high hopes that I will find out something then.  All I know is that I have a large cyst, it probably isn't cancer and I will probably have surgery to remove it.  I really want to have the answers now, last week would have been better.  But that is not how the health system works.  I'm a planner, so my life is really up in the air.  This is hard for me.   As you can see it took me a week to wrap mind around this and being able to write about it.   I'm hoping my entries about my journey will help someone after this is put behind me, that all will turn out well for them too.

Well I'm off to get a oil change for my van and maybe just maybe I will stop at a thrift shop or two!!  I will report my findings!!

Please keep me your prayers!!